It has been awhile I didn't update the blog.
I've been so much in these days,
Life is so tough,
I feel like wanna run away from everything and stay in a deserted place..
Maybe that would make me more better,
but.........
there's something behind - deep inside my heart that I am holding on.
Too much..
Am I in relationship ?
Or am I just a burden for Him?
Why He always complain about me?
Am I not good enough ?
He never praise me, even a word....
I used to be confident in front most of people, but
in front of Him, I lose it..
I become timid,
I feel so small,
so timid..
The feeling is not that good at all..
Today we argue because of past things..
I'm just like, Oh God, How long could I keep holding on being like this ?
Being untrusted..
Struggle alone..
Suddenly I feel so empty inside!
I wanna let Him to know, I need Him..
I don't wanna waste my time, I want Him to be my Mr.Right..
I wanna tell Him what's in my mind, before it's too late
_to be continued_
-Andrea, 12th May 2011-