CHAPTER ELEVEN

COUNTDOWN 10DAYS

Everything going quite well today..

But there's something bothering my mind..
I get nightmare again..
The second time~

Today I feel kind of tired..
I'm started to feel tired of faking smile but deep in the bottom of my heart, I'm crying..

I keep telling myself to be strong..
Mickey want me to be so....
But I'm doing really hard...........
I already trying my very best..
Do He knows ?

I'm used to be a very strong and tough one, but when I'm facing Mickey, I started to become weak~

I tell myself not to be so..I want His attention, although He's not that every time..
I'm changing, improving my attitude..
I'm no longer that little princess..
I want to be the CHONG CHEE KIAN's "little woman" !!

I will be.....

I know It's not gonna be easy!
It's going to be really hard..
We gonna have to work at this every day but I want to do that because I want you, babe!
I want all of you everyday, forever..
You & Me every day
Just Us Two .......

Babe, 我任不住了。。
我很想哭。。
是我太依赖你了。。

Every time the stronger I wanna be, the more empty my heart will be..
I need you understand me..I want you care me more..
I need your attention..

But I can't be selfish..
So, I end up this way,
locking myself this way..

I rather sad myself than to burden you..
I know you don't like to be stress or burden..
So, I should sacrifice, I'll be more independent..

But I hope ..
I beg....If one day I can't take it anymore and cry,
Hope you won't angry me..

I want you to be happy, then, it's worth..
Everything is worth..

And again I want to tell you so much that I miss you!!
But I didn't tell you in the phone,
coz I scared you will bored..
I didn't do so..
I'm really down..
I didn't tell..
I will get over it myself
Don't worry me
But it's really killing me!

I wish you would speak before I did..

Even though sometimes I know you miss me,
but i NEED you to say it to me
I need to hear it
It would make me more happy and concern
Really.....It would.

Give me some time....
I truly love you..
Just You..

That's all for today..

Goodnight, Mickey..
From the _SadMinnie_

-Andrea, 20th April 2011-